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Visiting Seattle May 13th-17th. Prebook special

[FONT=Century Gothic][SIZE=2][COLOR="#6600cc"]OMFG! I swear everytime I speak on something that is or should be happening it don't go that way. Now I'm not sure what's going to happen.

It doesn't look like I'll be retiring as soon as I thought, my paperwork was approved to go into the "lottery" but that doesn't mean I'm approved. Joys of miscommunication between case managers.

SMH now I feel hella stupid thinking things were about to greatly improve. ...

[FONT=Franklin Gothic Medium][SIZE=3][COLOR="#ff3399"]Wow! Is really all I have to say right now I knew this was going to happen just didn't think it would be now. I'm kind of speechless about the whole situation. I don't even really have time to even properly say good bye.

The first time I did I knew deep down I'd be back after a while and almost 3 years later I did. Back then I was all over the place and didn't care. This time is different, it's sad but at the same time ...

[FONT=Arial Black][SIZE=2][COLOR="#006666"]After word vomiting on here last night and looking or sounding like i lost my damn mind i feel a thousand times better!!

I jujst needed to let it all out, I have been holding back a lot of emotion and have been really busy I have not had time to release anything. Now i can say proudly Bring on the hate you assholes, I do not care what you think of me. Yes i am big, huge, gigantic or whatever else you want to call me, I always will ...

[FONT=Century Gothic][SIZE=2][COLOR="#990099"]I fucking know better then to let these assholes get to me. So why have I allowed them to get into my head like this?!?! I know the only person that can answer that is me and i do not fucking know....

I think because i believe part of what they are saying, I have always been a big girl (dr says i have a very slow thyroid) meds have helped a little but not much. hell when i was an active user i was still big. Ive done every diet, ...